Sad Endings...Hopeful New Beginnings..

My post title tells it's own story really. Sadly my five year relationship has come to an end.

It does hurt like hell but we both wanted different things out of life. As this is all very raw at the minute I will leave it there. I really do hope we can both move on and be happy as life is far too short not to be.

I have always and still do love my life afloat, it isn't for everybody as I have found to my cost, but it is for me. I think 14 years afloat proves that fact! I have always wanted to share my love and enthusiasm for boat life with somebody who truly loves it as I do but I realise now that is not where my happiness lies. I can be happy alone, and I am the majority of the time. If that special person comes along great, if not I refuse to live my life being disappointed because I didn't find him!

I have done so much thinking and soul searching over the past few weeks, mostly positive thinking as I am a positive person. Negativity in any form drains me completely, so any signs of it I quickly try and diminish and replace it with a happy thought. It is so much nicer being in a good place rather than a bad and the only person who can control that is ourselves. It isn't and never will be anybody else's responsibility to make our own lives a happy experience! Hey my life isn't always positively rosy, I do have dark down days but it's how you deal with them and recover from them. I am sure as hell from now on going to make a concerted effort to distance my self from anything that doesn't make me happy! If that means going it alone I will. Fate will take care of the chances of me meeting my soul mate and if fate decides my only soulmate is me, then so be it!! I have a lovely family and a close circle of invaluable friends who really do prove there worth when you are going through a tough time. If I never meet my special someone these important people in my life will be enough for me!

I refuse to let the bad times of the relationship cloud the happy times. I want to look back on the many photos and smile at the memory because it was a good memory that made us happy in that particular moment. Happy memories firmly locked in my head and my heart!

Now to the reason why I have suddenly decided to write my blog again! It is something I love doing but have let it fall by the wayside recently. I love putting my thoughts down on paper as and when they pop into my head, cringe making for some people but going by messages and views of my blog some people really do enjoy my ramblings!

I had a lovely visit from my Cousin, Sandra, yesterday with her friend Doug. They are both seriously thinking of buying boats to become live aboard's so they wanted to pick my brains, I was happy to oblige! Doug surprised me by saying he had read my blog after Sandra had told him about it, how nice is that? I now know I have two fans, my lovely Mum and now the lovely Doug! I dedicate this post to you Doug as it was you who kicked my sorry ass into gear to dust off my lap top and write again! I am sure if they both go ahead with their dreams of living afloat they won't regret it..hopefully!

So for any of you who read this look out! I intend to delve into the world of blogging again!

I have lots to waffle about.

I have new members to the crew of Tickety Boo! For those of you who don't already know who they are all will be revealed in my next post!

So now back to today. The weather is again glorious, if a little too meltingly hot for me. Life on my boat is lovely anytime of the year but when the sun shines through all my windows it's truly magical and is full of happy light dancing on the ceiling! If that doesn't put a smile on your face you are truly missing out on the simple things in life which to me are precious!

Yesterday was spirit lifting for me, lovely visit from Sandra and Doug and then a really fun filled evening with Jules a couple of bottles of wine on the back deck while being entertained with a glorious sunset.

                                                            Jules, my wine swigging sidekick!

Perfect ending to a positive day! I had forgotten just how blessed I am to have the honour of being able to sit on my back deck on a balmy evening on my beloved Tickety Boo who I very nearly gave up. I am so happy I didn't..